An Incredible Journey

Oh wow, I’ve been away longer than planned. First of all I want to thank the kind comments I’ve received on my posts. I never thought anyone would ever read them let alone have nice things to say about them! It means alot and I’m thrilled to have your comments on my blog. However I haven’t yet figured out how to comment back so I’m adding it here. The learning curve is incredibly huge and I’m learning as I go. Thanks for being patient with me.

I was blind-sided by the death of my baby brother, who committed suicide after Father’s Day weekend. While I was happily writing my post about overcoming my depression, he was suffering more than I can know. Be at peace, my brother. I love you, I’m sorry, please forgive me, thank you. That’s all I’ll say about that here.

I find that I have little time for anything because all that I do with my extra time is read, read, read! Of course, much time is spent with family on summer activities (I am fulfilling the promise to my kids to spend more quality time in nature, camping, etc.) and school ( I take classes online, and the summer session, since it is compacted into two months, is brutal), but I’ve embarked on an incredible inner journey that is all-encompassing. Outside of massive lifestyle changes, I am devouring information and books about consciousness, quantum mechanics, earth issues and space-time/time/space.

I especially love the positive messages about the year 2012 at David Wilcock’s site, DivineCosmos.com (I don’t know why the link button is disabled,sorry). His down to earth style gives me a good feeling about him (I’m usually skeptical about things I read on the internet). He backs up his way out ideas with good solid science, and he gives references. And he really does try to downplay the Edgar Cayce reincarnation stuff, for the most part, because it takes energy away from his message, which is, simply put, that our species has begun to go through an evolutionary transformation, ie: that we are about to experience an evolutionary ‘jump’. When this happens, we will wake up to who we really are, and we will realize that we are NOT seperate, beings, that we are in fact all the same. Yes, black, white, native, gay, straight, catholic, muslim, republican, democrat, etc, etc…… anyhow it’s worth checking out. I’m not tremendously impressed with the site design (sorry, David), there are some dead links and it took me a little while to find the material. I recommend going to the ’start here’ tab, and just going down the menu from there.

If you are wondering about the major lifestyle changes I mentioned, for starters I’m changing the way my family and I eat. This is not an easy task. I am meeting some resistance, and I have much to teach my family (and alot to learn my own self!). It will be a tough switch, we really ate alot of bad food! I’ve planted a small garden and I will expand it dramatically next spring. Meanwhile I’m learning all that I can about gardening, consuming mass quantities of myspace bulletin posts and youtube videos like this one.

Starting your own garden is the best way for each of us (and for the planet) to know exactly what we are eating. I want to take this farther in the next few years by also adding some livestock. Chickens, a goat, a cow, and bees, too. Yeah, it looks like I’m turning hippy!

Also, in honor of my brother whom I did not stay in close enough contact, I have vowed to stay in touch with the important people in my life. This is difficult for me because I have reclusive tendencies, I’m rather anti-social. It’s so easy to let our families and friends drift away as we become absorbed in our spouses and our children’s lives, and then when we lose someone we think of all the times we should have been in touch, the things we should have said. I want to take the shouldas, wouldas, and couldas out of my life and just stay close to those who are close to me, from this day forward.

Making conscious changes in our lives requires taking a stand, and sticking with it. It will change everything in your life, but in a good way. I haven’t felt this alive in many years, and I’m not about to let it slip away this time!

So I probably won’t be around too much for the next couple of weeks with all the summer fun, but after finals are done I’m going to start posting more regularly with fresh ideas about love, about food, about us, as a species. Who knows where it will all go, but I’m so looking forward to the journey!